I want you to be well. I want you to be happy and care free.
In these wishes, I'm feeling the need to disassociate myself from the online community for a while. It's just all too much. I'm feeling like Cat Stevens. My heart is too big and too open to let more sick and dying people in. I have a hard enough time caring for myself at this point that somehow it seems useless to form more relationships with people that will leave me.
This is an absolutely insane conclusion, I know. I know because I've had people leave me for the same reasons. I'm not leaving anyone-- I'm just closing the option of adding more dead friends to the list.
It's all too much.
From blue lips I say, I am not leaving you but I want you to live.
***Edited on Saturday, August 16th to remove name and web address.